Bang bang bang
My head on the wall
'Give up' the voice says
And i feel so small
Thud thud thud
My heart on my chest
My head pounds like a drum
I'm trying my best
Scrape scrape scrape
My nails on my arm
Pale skin flakes off
But I'm not alarmed
Bite bite bite
My sore inner cheek
And I breathe breathe breathe
Until I'm back on my feet.
Again. And again. And again.
Always on repeat.