I finally had an excuse
to message you today,
i waited so long with my heart
jumping out of my chest with
each minute that passed.
I checked even though I got no notifications
technology can be crazy sometimes,
or at least that's what I told myself
so an hour and exactly 15 minutes later
i checked my messages again waiting
for a reply
and all I saw that made me
sick to my stomach
was that you read the message.