He starts pulling at my heart
Making me believe he loves me
Me falling for his trickery
His desires stronger than mine,
Different than mine
Him stronger than me,
More powerful
With every touch he becomes stronger,
More motivated,
More hurtful
The tears begin to fall,
Faster and faster through the screams
Wanting,
Aching,
Wishing,
For it to stop
Instead it becomes unbreakable
And as it continues,
He becomes unbearable
Laying,
Watching,
Waiting,
Underneath him
I look into his eyes and see
Hate,
Pure,
Evil,
And real
Examining his naked body trembling,
Over mine
I exhale
Wondering
If I can breath,
If I want to breath
Every inch of my body shouting
No
Every cell,
Every muscle,
Every bone,
Waiting for it to be over

But,
It never will be over
I carry it everywhere I go
Every store,
House,
Or school
He is with me
His memory overriding my brain
Taking over my love
Sucking my emotions
This experience forever intertwined with My life,
My love,
And my family,
Years have made me stronger
Tears have left me wanting to love
Fears exist in my mind
My life spent making myself tough
Smiles hiding feelings
Drinks drowning the agony
But,
In the end I won
I have fought
I have felt true pain
I have pushed myself to the limit
I have a better relationship with my family
I have won
Nothing,
And no one
Can break me
I am defined by my actions and my family,
Not by the horrible actions done to me,
I concurred rape.