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why is it that love is the thing that plays in my mind on repeat
how does this bipolar low attack my feelings
why do I try to hide it.
why am I ashamed of it.
It's because I hurt myself
but I also hurt others.
The words in my head attack my self esteem
the thoughts in my brain turn into words that repeat back to you.
the black silence of words writing faster in a swirling motion
it all fits in the back of my neck as it travels up my spine
it feeds through my ears until my eyes cry.
the pain of trying to erase those suicidal thoughts.
something that continues to repeat and repeat.
the danger has spoken
but my words have pushed people away
my mind tells me to struggle and I accept it
It's not until I am here writing that I feel like I have some control.
I feel like I can somewhat breathe.
I can adjust to my surroundings
I release some pain
some of those black words in my mind are being printed in front of your eyes.
-art