I am a small thing

A creature of few words and many small thoughts, my mind is running over with trifles and sweet gestures for the spirits that surround me

I am small in demeanor but corpulent of mind and conscience

I love in truthfulness and forgive without qualm

I am meek and bursting with happiness

I am sorry to live in sinfulness and strangely enough, sorry to live in the light

To run and run and run and never stop to see where I've brought myself is a tragic loss of tranquility

 

I miss you

I wish we could remember a time when we were neither of us so far away

I miss the idea of you tied around my chest and shoulders, a love in your voice and a joy running in the window like rain falling from heaven

Why did I leave you?

Why was I afraid

Why did the time fly away but the clock keep ticking keep ticking like you were still here

Why was I so selfish

Why am I so selfish

Why does God still care for me though I sin and cry out through my teeth

 

I am pretty creature, but I am ugly and I am pretending to be wonderful

I am not wonderful

But you are

 

How lost am in a world that is so far away from me

Why don't I belong with you?

Why can't I bring myself to humble and fall on my knees?

 

I need...

I am so selfish

Referred to too many times already

I hardly even hate to be a burden any more

 

I wish you would hate me

There I go again, insisting that this life has been about me

 

You love me still

 

I want

I want

I want

I need to sit, broken before you

You love me and I need to be a life at your service

I think bloodied thoughts and arch my back in prostration at your feet

I want more than anything in life to love you in all my being

In my very mind I fall into you

I crumble, empty, in your presence

Please hold me to your chest and whisper to me that you will accept me

Please say that all I am is you now

 

Please