I keep my head down,

and in my tears I drown,

I need it to go away,

I can't show weakness not today.

 

i need the tears to end,

one quick text you could send,

you show up here,

your eyes welling with the possibility of a tear.

 

without you I don't know what I'd do,

your always here when I've done so little for you,

when the tears wash away blood each day,

you make everything seem okay.

 

you stand at my door,

loud at first but then silent to listen to the floor,

You don't here me moving around,

that's because I'm lying on the ground.

 

you get the door unlocked and rush in,

to see that on the bathroom floor I have fallen,

I can hear you but can't see clearly,

you try to stop the blood hoping there is a possibility.

 

the blood won't stop flowing,

my skin turning white like its glowing,

I can't respond when you talk to me,

I can barely even breathe.

 

i can hear you in a panic,

sounding like your sinking with the titanic,

screaming for help and crying on the phone,

you tell me not to worrying I'm not alone.

 

the sound of her voice begins to fade,

Like the pain does when I use my blade,

this time the pain was to great,

and the blade went further than my body could take.

 

I slip from reality for a while,

my death gets put on file,

I never wanted you to see me die.

you weren't supposed to stop by.