REWIND

If you really knew me,

You'd recognize the pain in my eyes

From every word, every lie, every part of me that tried to hide...

From you

And your goons

From my tormentors and my thieves.

Stealing my smile

Stealing my joy

Taunting my passion

Hating my fashion

I'm unacceptable because I don't look like you...

 

And I would listen to what'd they say,

so many days I wondered if suicide was the way.

I looked longingly at the bridge

Trying to force myself to fall off

But some how I kept perseverance

Forgetting your claims about my appearance

Then it hit me.

If I stay, you lose

I get things done my way

So I'm Going home

I'm not falling off this bridge today

 

Look At Me Now

Go ahead and wipe the tears from my eyes.

As I bend down to pick up my pride.

But then I look back.

Get mad at the thought of my past.

Go back and chase my enemy,

warp speed, like my name was the Flash...

 

Flashback to when I was the victim...

The sight of his blood makes me remember,

when I was the rare steak that they wanted for dinner

They were undead vampies but still looked down on me as the sinner.

 

So with my fist still clenched

Watching 'em flinch

Listening to 'em wince

The sound of their pain rings so familiar to me

Like music to my ears

Their bruises are Picasso's to my vision

I know it's a jacked up system

 

Karma's a witch here to spell bind us to this place

We've all tried to ditch.

But it doesn't make sense

Cause if what goes around really does come around

Then why am I,

The original victim,

Now the bad guy?

 

Fast Forward

 So now I'm living my life.

Nice house

Nice car

Yea, I'm living large

But my heart still haunts me,

My demons they still taunt me

I've tried to drown them in my tears,

but they've learned to swim

 

So I drive myself crazy

All the voices in my head make life real foggy

Real hazy.

I've never done drugs, but if this is what high feels like

Then put me back on the ground

I wanna be stable

 

I miss the time when peace was just putting in headphones and ride

Maybe down a block or two

Or just chilling in your room

'Cuz when life hits it's like all the weight

It's now on you

And you don't know what to do

So you wait and you pray

Looking for answers in everyway.

Then like her last swing of your last fight

You realize,

No pain ever lasts forever