I saw you today

I thought to smile

you looked away

almost as if you took my small gesture to keep tucked 

deep in your heart and far from your minds reach, so you cannot feel 

the guilt of wanting to stay.

 

I saw a women with you in a green sunflower dress, she looked tired

with a daughter who carries you and my smile as she clings to her mothers leg.

You climb onto the bus, again running away from your past like water. My mouth

wanted to say something but all that came out was "fu-" and I walked away

 

I got home I had bills to pay, mothers medical  for pills for the heartache

She looked at me, probally drunk, whith her raspy voice

"dear would you bring me some water" I do as I am told

 

That was yesterday, today mother lay awake but resting in a peaceful way,

we all gathered round and weep, lilies were her favorite so we set her on her

final journey now the riverbay, and maybe your paths with cross, maybe not.

But hold on, hold on treassure what you've got now, and so you never

have to tuck down a smile  again, because my mother wouldve wanted it,

remember that one night well speant.

 

Thank you.