i am consumed by the
overwhelming urge to be
white blank neutral
unloaded
nothingness
i am almost apathetic i
brush the bridge of idontcare i can tas-
te the edge of fading
but
this is a strange sensation
for it is not aggressive
i have spend my whole being’s life’s existence’s energy
TRYING to BE something to
FIGHT FIGHT FIGHT
and now i’ve gotta bad case of
simplicity
colorless almost nonexistent
and
i
am
ok with
it.
i’m not struggling for the sensation
of sensation i don’t
want to FEEL anything
i am
numb i
want shades of white
humans don’t understand that this
fighting all the time doesn’t work you just
fight fight fight and then die and
then
what?
give me monotony no
wait
i’ll find it
mys-
elf.
i will find honesty and i
will strip it and
pour water over it and
watch it breathe so
easily in its
bare truth and
it is not afraid and it
is not being aggressively
honest nor bestially TRUE!!! it
is simply there and that is all for
we are all a bit
numb
and i am
done
.