no one believes me 

when I tell them how hard it is to breathe

how my throat aches with every second that slowly ticks by 

no one hears me

when i scream through my closed mouth 

once it is all over 

no one cares

only when it is happening 

only when you can see the frown pull my face down aggresively by the sides of my head

only when i open my mouth to call out- 

then you care

then you can see 

and you can hear me 

but it is too late 

i crave the feeling of myself leaking out 

too much to stop now 

now that you care

now that you can see 

and hear

it doesnt change a thing 

i have always been able to understand you - 

when will you understand me