I want to run away

to a world of hunger

a world of war

a world of infamy

I want to be known by everyone, and forgotten by all

I want to jump in the river and follow its current

I want to break my neck while someone is stabbing me on the side

I want someone to hold me and tell me they love me while they hold a bouquet of flowers and burn the whole house down

I want to suffocate, while being in a dark alley

I want someone to punch me, I'll probably pay them!

I want to feel alive, I want to feel something

I wish I was strong, I know that I am, because if I wasn't I wouldn't be writing this. Goodbye.