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I’ve been avoiding writing about you
because for once in my life
I have too many words
and none of them encapsulate the
being that you are
When I think of you
I think of your smile
and it kills me and I always look away
because it stirs something, aggressively
and it makes me smile too
We live in this place
and I know it’s so hard
to live where the only rainbows we see
are the ones we paint on the inside of our eyelids
and that has to be enough
But you have been the calm
in the midst of all the chaos
you have been the storm
that rages inside my heart
you have been new and scary and beautiful
You are frustrating and confusing
you trace kisses and leave bruises on my neck
but you tease and you stop and you
smile
your fucking perfect smile
I want to breathe new air into your lungs
when you talk about the insecurities you carry
you do not know that you are a fire
and you can engulf the world if you want
but you keep a bucket of water by your side
and you worry, and you give
and you give and you give
and I can’t pick one or two or even ten words
that will describe you well but I will say that you are
relentless in your love
and if I could tell you enough thank yous
for all of your kindness
it would stretch into oceans
and be carried away and would
eventually end up exactly where it started
because you are a force, you are a fire
you are, you are.