I don’t need to put up with it.
Yet I do.
She doesn’t deserve to make me feel like nothing 100% of the time.
Yet she does.
She doesn’t deserve me.
Do I deserve her? When she does nothing but criticize.
She doesn’t believe that she is ever wrong.
she never apologizes.
to make herself feel better,
she makes me feel a million times worse.
She says I don’t take anything seriously
with nobody to talk too except the ones that hurt me.
can u blame me?
Can you sit there and blame me for my period pain?
To tell me I take nothing seriously?
My job, my work, my life?
Maybe you’re right...
can you blame ME for the pain I feel everyday and I can’t even talk to my mom about it.
The only one I want to talk too.
The one I want to know but won’t ever get too.
For the mental thoughts that rip me apart
the physical ones who literally do.
Every second of every freaking day.
I feel it.
Do I want to, do I deserve to?
I would choose the physical ones every time, everyday.
who do I have to talk to except the ones who cause it.
Because nobody really cares, why would they. I’m me.
How can I even pretend to sit here and enjoy life when all life did was deal me a crappy hand and my bluff isn’t working.
How can I sit here and pretend to be happy when all that the pretending is doing is reminding me I’m not.
I never can be.
To the mom who never told me she loved me without lying.