Becoming fallen, plot my heart
On a tattered paper, torn apart
And put back together by crappy Scotch tape
With a worn out title, date, and name
Written at the top in a dream of the life
That I dream of every day and each night
And I wait for every day to pass
To have what people who are happy have
This page with a name, barely legible font
Of a daydreaming dunce, who's pencil doth flaunt
As it flows and dances across a wrinkled page from a book
Of which I dare write, never again to look
Upon notes of proclamation, and poems written in red
The blood I have spilled, the pain in my head
Begging to be answered, scratching at my thoughts
Until inside my own head I am caught
A smile on my face but a scream in my mind
Unto myself i have not treated kind
Between many things I shouldn't have done
My chances that he lived became slim to none
But I did despite being a danger to me
And come out of the darkness only to see
That even though I am in the light
I still realize the things that I knew in the night
That people are only happy temporarily
And that becoming happy would only be contrary
Because every time I have found happiness, it leaves
Whether I can keep it forever or if irlt retreats
It leaves...happiness inevitable impossible
But the pain others feel at my hand, I feel responsible
That the happiness they can not feel could be me
And that it took all this time to see
That I can be a problem, a nuisance, an inconvenience
Dragging peolle down even if I don't mean it
I only haven't done this to one...
Sometimes I still feel like I have...no matter what I've done
I feel like something I did was wrong
Like there wasn't a thing I could say or a song
To say how I feel because I can't convey it
Sometimes I just don't know how to say it
And it's in those times I wish I could kiss you
It's killing me thinking of how much I miss you
But wait I shall with no hesitation
I can try to draw a picture in your imagination
Of a kiss, or my hand gracing your skin
In the darkness, no...not darkness...light but it's dim
Behind a curtain, seconds from exposure at any time
But we break the rules anyway, crossing this line
But if you are willing I am willing as well
To dare to touch your lips, caught by the smell
If you in my shirt, as your nails scratch my back
But not in pain, but in an attack on my heart
As it beats a but faster in response
To the feel of your hand, because you is all I want
And you I will have...forever I know...
So into out future together we go...