my stupid genius brain

Life sucks and it might not get better

That's what you constantly remind me of

My stupid genius brain

With your pessimism and maladaptive daydreaming

My stupid genius brain

Why can't you just shut up while I'm trying to sleep

Why can't you just stop thinking about boys I can't have

Why can't you let me change my life for the better

Why can't you let me fix you

Life sucks and it might not get better

Because you are holding me back

Life sucks and it might not get better

I just want to be better

 

I want to travel and take pictures

I want to learn languages and meet people

I want to act and sing and dance

I want to make a difference in the world

But I can't even start a conversation

But I can't even walk into a classroom by myself

But I can't even write a poem that rhymes

But I can't

Because you are holding me back

Life sucks and it might not get better

I just want to be better

 

I want to do big things

But I want to do little things too

I want to wear bright makeup and high heels

I want to jump rope and swim

I want to drive a car by myself

I want to get an A on my essay

But I can't

Because you are holding me back

Because my stupid genius brain is holding me back

Life sucks and it might not get better

I just want to be better

 

Life sucks and it might not get better

And I want to go one day without thinking about how much life sucks

And I want to go one day without being held back by you

And I want to go one day without feeling dead and alone

And I want to go one day without... want

I want to go one day without wanting

I just want to be free

Life sucks and it might not get better

It definitely won't get better with you holding me back

So this is my letter to you my stupid genius brain

Not everything is about school and memorization

Not everything is logical and rational

Friendship and socialization is complicated

Life is complicated

And my life only sucks because you make it suck

So suck it up, buttercup, get with the programme

I don't want my life to suck

You better get in line and get your act together

My dear stupid genius brain

Shut up and enjoy life for once

Life sucks and it might not get better

But it might

This poem is about: 
Me

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