How great is my sorrow
How deep is my pain
This burden that follows me; engulfed by the shame…
To have fallen from your eyes,
as such a child like me would,
is the greatest affliction- the greatest punishment to bear.
Overwhelmed by my choices…
alone…without you…incomplete.
My happiness is shut out from my very grasp
And I am left with nothing but remorse and sadness.
What I would give to let it all out,
To release the pain and start all over…
What I would give to have the strength to overcome…
But alas, I cannot.
I am a slave to my own desires- A prisoner in my own conscience.
Unable to escape and be free.
How long must I go on this way?
How long must I endure the suffering of knowing the disappointment I have brought before your eyes?
How long will I be weak and not have the courage to rise and be changed by you.
What am I waiting for?
Oh savior who art in heaven, how I long to rejoice in your glory.
How I long to be free in your love.
How I long for the joy and happiness only you can give.
Yet I am repressed by my sin.
I am shunned from your light.
I am chained to the walls of misery and endless woe brought upon by my own actions.
Only you hold the truth.
Only you wield the key to my escape…yet I am so reluctant to approach you…
Why?
With every action comes a necessary consequence, and do I fear it?
Yes, I cannot lie.
Yet I know it is the only way to find favor in your eyes again.
To once more feel your love and cling to the joy I so longingly seek.
Therefore, I know what must be done.
I know the power of your sacrifice, of your atonement for me: for all my sins.
And I am truly grateful…so in return I too must sacrifice.
and pay you back for what I’ve done to show the gratitude I feel.
To show that I am ready and willing to obey,
to accept your love and be freed.
Please accept me.