I'm not one to write

I don't do poems

or songs

I dont have a diary

I rarely speak about what's wrong

I bottle things up

So deep till eventually

That cup

Overflows

Over throws

That castle, kingdom, world

Known as my life

I put up barriers

I put up walls

I refuse to let people in

In the waves known as my feelings

I let myself sink

Not looking for pity

Not looking for sorrow

I'm looking for the daylight we'll find in tomorrow

But sometimes

Tomorrow looks dim

As it darkens and deepens

I'm trying to swim

Walls caving in

I'm tired

Tired of being my own lifeguard

Saving myself from God knows what