Maybe this is all just a dream......

Maybe I might wake up and this will all be over..... I know that's a lie because I haven't waken up yet and I'm begging to wake up............ They won't let me go......

They want to see me suffer I wonder if living is even worth it at all........

They laugh I cry....... They win I lose it's a game to them really and I can't play anymore there's no more fight in me

My only hope is that I stay strong enough to fight them off....... It seems like forever and it seem hopeless

Every time I try to pull back my shoulders they attack and crush my soul to the floor.......

I want to live, play, sing, dance and smile that's my hope.....

My long wanted hope and wish that everything for once would be okay for me I want to go see the world with eyes and a new mind set but how could I if they're holding me back and drag me against my will......

I want to fight and make them disappear, but they're always there no matter what I try to do

They want me to see that they're stronger then me that they are the alphas

When I cry at night all the pain and suffering they make me go through finally comes out and relief washing me over

People say that it's time to let go and that it's over but they don't know what it takes to be me and what I have to give up in order to function......

I never thought that they dug my grave so deep...... I will try but won't promise much......... Let's see where the water will take me in my journey to self knowing and healing