My Lost Little Guy
the only thing i can hear is my heart beating in my ears
and the water coming from the shower head
shhhhhh
lub-dub
lub-dub
lub-dub
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we wake up
well i do at least…
he lays there, warmly grasping my side
i try to move him
why did I think that would work?
three minutes late he’s grasping me again
my beautiful smiling little guy
perfect morning memories
HA, Perfect Morning Memories,
Perfect Memories Always.
eventually we get out of bed,
I make breakfast like always.
He runs back and forth
back and forth
back and forth
back and forth
SIT PLEASE, I scream at the top of my lungs
but what effect does it have, none at all
sometimes I feel like I can still hear
his little feet pitter patter
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my mind is still
i’ve never felt pain like this before
i shake; uncontrollable sobbing
i dry off and return to the world
The mask returns, and the pain dissipates.