Of all the choices I have made
having you be a part of my life
was most definitely not one of them.
you proved to be the most useful
and most grateful thing in my life.
You who the doctors try to medicate away
with every kind of pill possible,
not knowing that you are already
the biggest part of me.
Before I knew it,
you became my most trusted confidant.
My only ally.
You taught me the consequences
of my actions.
Whether it be trusting too easily,
or caring too much.
You were always there to remind me
of the trail of fire following me,
ready to burn me alive.
nothing burns sweeter
than a heart broken.
And I’ve never thanked you
because all this time
I’ve been told you were the enemy,
when in reality,
you were the black flames
leading me away from the dangers
of the blood-consuming red flames.