I need help

I' am in the need of help

because i can't hold my breath any longer

It's drinking my soul away,

Leaving me with broken ribs

and scars to tell no story

Walking in a line that i feel hope less

Hit me if you don't care,

fight me, cut me

Because all you want is drag me down 

Treat me as trash here..

To this grief and pain i hide

A black hole that i wish could just disappear,

not only you don't care for me

It's not the haltered you are giving me,

but the pain of feeling so lone 

So I could fake a smile everyday,

Nobody will notice anyway

Forcing myself on what you ask me to

Is this my childhood?