why can’t I sleep?
I try so hard and still need relief
While every night, I lay there in waiting
But instead, my thoughts are introspective wailing.
For you see sir,
all that I see
Is every flaw and issue in me.
Please give me some magic scheme
To avoid this inner study.
Should I take pills?
Cause I would rather have dreams than be stilled
As my chest’s crushed and cold hands choke me
Cause paralysis summons up a kelpie
Biting as I choke on air
For nothing she brings gives any care
And I can’t sleep because of her stare.
Lend me some peace,
If this goes on, I doubt I can keep
For every night I struggle and snivel
For my own mind refuses to control
All this doubt and horror and mindless disorder and purely unfounded and overall quite confounding depictions of mayhem and my own deficiencies while I am half asleep and why can I only sleep during car rides am I narcoleptic or worse-?
Is this nature or am I fitfully cursed!?
You leaned an ear,
But being honest, I’m not one you hear.
Leave me be another year,
For Sir Sandman, I’ve drowned you in fears