I was the phoenix that rose through the fire and never knew

when

to

stop

picking up dead pieces of whatever that was and repeatedly trying to put them back together to protect from insanity but failing.

 

I was the river who aspired to be an ocean so I beat the rocks with all my power and

never

wanted

to 

stop

Beating myself down and clouding my judgement failing to see it was not the rocks that were eroding

it was me.

 

I was the tree who wanted to grow to be the tallest in the forest and 

never

wanted

to 

stop

Dreaming and neglecting the logic that once I am the tallest there would be no more shade for my prematurity to hide

 

Once all of my toxic persistence beat me within an inch of no return

the moment came when i finally realized my worth

 

I AM the Pheonix that rises through the ashes 

NEVER

GOING 

TO

STOP

Getting back up agian and agian mourning the broken heart and defeat but soaring above it

I AM the river though narrow longer than I can conceive

NEVER

GOING

TO 

STOP

lapping the shores softly providing nourishment for the ones around me

I AM the tree wanting to grow and knowing I will but takes my time

swaying in the shade of the ones who have come before me

anticipating my time of success where I can be that for the future ones

I AM

the mother

the pheonix

the daughter

the river

the sister

the trees

the wife

the breeze

I AM

the unforgettable past my journey started on

the optimism held before my present

and the nutured future that

will

never

stop.