MOMMA WHY DIDNT YOU LOVE ME

When I was a little girl

And you were out with yet another new man

I sobbed Why doesn't she love me?

When I was a little girl

And needed you so desperately

I asked God Why doesn't she love me?

When as a teen I turned to drugs for solace

I screamed at you Why don't you love me?

When as a teen I turned to sex for affection

I demanded to know Why don't you love me?

When as a teen my emptiness turned to suicidal rage

I hurt you, myself, God and anybody near

Yearning for an explanation Why doesn't she love me?

As an adult I struggle daily to battle the demons you left me with

Asking myself, Why doesn't she love me?

As an adult I fight the anguished pain to overcome the past torments

Always wondering to myself Why doesn't she love me?

Now as a mother myself

I look at my innocent babe and know

I am capable of great love

I am worthy of love

I deserve to be loved

Mother what was wrong with you?

You could not see the love and worship your child had for you

the love you abused and threw away, the child you broke

The woman she grew into is stronger than you

Her child will never wonder...

Why doesn't she love me

This poem is about: 
My family

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