The pain I feel is like no other

How could you do this to me?

I thought you were supposed to be my mother. 

This world has opened my eyes

I can finally see

 

You never wanted me

You never will want me still

 

Those pills were more important

You hurt 

And you scar

And you kill. 

You’d think with all of this rehab,

You would meet some kind of reinforcement. 

 

But the fact of the matter is:

You will never know what it’s like to love and to be loved.

 

Oh for once i wish that you were there on the bad days ready with a hug.

 

Mom? Is that you?

No.

Just another broken dream

I just wish I could see you

But things aren’t as they seem.

 

Your aura used to be so beautiful

Your smile lit up the world

But now this world is as dark as the devils soul

My heart has become broken, dreary, and cold. 

 

All of this because of you.

 

My life has become nothing but a joke to you

Something to walk in and out of like a revolving door.

My heart is broken and I can’t seem to find the glue

As you leave my heart shattered on the dirty floor

Why did you do this?

Please.Just give me a single clue.

 

I want to feel your loving touch and your soothing kiss

I want to know you as my mom

I want to know what it’s like to be a real daughter.