Tell me why the hell should I try

She isn't going to see me as

successful

she won't see my 

acomplishments

she won't let me be

her daughter

So why

why should I try

Why should I 

to show my love for her

why should I let her

into my life

Why should I 

show her respect

when all she seems to do is 

tell me what I am doing wrong

why should I be the bigger person

when I am less than half her age

why should I tell her what my life is like

when she doesn't really care

Why should I think that my sister and I are equal in her eyes

My sister

Who acts out when I come home

and it's excused because her friend is suicidal and she's having a hard time

but when I was the one who was suicidal

I got in trouble for acting out.

Yes

I do love her

How can I not

she raised me

but I will not 

let her put me down

and tell me I am a bad person

I must ignore that she 

kicked me out of the home

and put on the mask

of love and adoration