Misdirected Anger

by Ariel Douglas (10 Novemmber 2014)

 

I watch you shake your fist at heaven

I watch you scream and shout

“I don’t know if You’re up there!”

you cry. “But I don’t want You in my life.”

Without Him, there is no life.

He created you and gave you breath

I watch you pace and fret

I watch your eyes fill with tears

“My life is not worth living,”
you mumble. “I have to escape it.”

He created you for a reason,

you cannot run away.

I watch you growl in anger

I watch foam froth your lips

“If You’re there, You would’ve stopped him,”

you hiss. “If You’re real, I’d still have a dad.”

You can run all you want, but

this Father is always waiting for you.

I watch you sob in pain

I watch your breath leave you

“If You’re really like a father,”

you weep. “Then I don’t want You.”

He is unlike your earthly father,

He’s stronger than any mortal man, and he will never leave

I watch you stare numbly at nothing

I watch you contemplate your misery

“If You’re really there, then my life wouldn’t be such a mess,”

you sigh. “You’d have fixed it all by now.”

But, you see, that’s not true.

God created a perfect world,

we’re the ones who screwed it up

If He removed all of our pain and misery

then we would have no need for love and mercy

If He made us to always do what He wanted

(which certainly He could do)

then there would be no relationship,

we would not be children, but slaves

He allows the bad things to happen,

but is always there to pick up the pieces

He is waiting for you, Jason,

let Him put you back together.

Let Him give you life and make you who you’re meant to be

Let Him reveal your purpose and run into His arms

Let Him bring you in and adopt you as His son

Let Him show you what a Father is like and give you strength beyond compare

Let Him pick up the pieces

Let Him put you back together

 

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