Memeries
Music blasting through my ears
So loud I can’t hear anything else
Hoping and praying
That I’m never to be found
Carving away all of my pain
Or so I tell myself
Wishing for my brain
To just turn off
I know I’m in danger
Have been since day one
No need to remind me of that fact
Fighting to stay alive
To live and be me
Spitting up blood again
Because they need to show they’re number one
Now I’m hiding in the bathroom
Hoping they’ll call it quits for today
Can’t remember a life before this
When I still wanted to grow old
And cried tears of joy more than pain
Searching for a memory
Of when I didn’t have to worry
Never being alert
But I’m always looking for a nonexistent memory