In my simple mind

You would think i consist of simple thoughts

That i would think just like you

To agree with everything that you do is right.

No.

Because of you I dont know who I am.

And I have been searching deperately for the key

that tells me who I am. 

Right now I am pretending to be that perfect person 

for you. 

Do I like it?

I despise myself for that. 

To go along and bob my head like a puppet.

When on the inside im saying otherwise.

I despise you for making me like this.

I am just a shell of influence that makes up me.

That you made up. 

It destroys me that I am mute when i want 

to share my ideas with you. 

Because of you I have a social anxiety disorder.

When i go to the outside world i cannot 

speak for myself. My interests...

What are my interests..?

Who am I?

Am i just a replica of you?

No I wouldnt dare to become like you.

But you see you always win ,

because I always let you win....

I let you make me a prisoner of my home

to roam free is a dream a strong hope of mine

to say and think and like whatever I want .

But that dream is still to far to reach.

So for now I will lay down 

to your liking. Until that

day comes. I 

will be waiting

anxiously.