Me and My Mind
In my simple mind
You would think i consist of simple thoughts
That i would think just like you
To agree with everything that you do is right.
No.
Because of you I dont know who I am.
And I have been searching deperately for the key
that tells me who I am.
Right now I am pretending to be that perfect person
for you.
Do I like it?
I despise myself for that.
To go along and bob my head like a puppet.
When on the inside im saying otherwise.
I despise you for making me like this.
I am just a shell of influence that makes up me.
That you made up.
It destroys me that I am mute when i want
to share my ideas with you.
Because of you I have a social anxiety disorder.
When i go to the outside world i cannot
speak for myself. My interests...
What are my interests..?
Who am I?
Am i just a replica of you?
No I wouldnt dare to become like you.
But you see you always win ,
because I always let you win....
I let you make me a prisoner of my home
to roam free is a dream a strong hope of mine
to say and think and like whatever I want .
But that dream is still to far to reach.
So for now I will lay down
to your liking. Until that
day comes. I
will be waiting
anxiously.