I hide behind the smile

while my heart silently weeps

thinking of all the disappointment

Fear

It takes over me

Tears

like a streaming river of self doubt flowing out of my eyes

My confidence deceives you

My personality deludes you

but behind it all behind everything I seem

I am afraid

 

I am afraid of my future

I am afraid of my past

I am afraid that my present is as good as it’s going to get

I am afraid that my fear will hold me back

But I won’t let it

I will not allow my petty insecurities shy me away from discovering the unknown

No

This is my life I command it not my fear

a life of terror is one unlived

I am not afraid

 

My future is unclear

My past is written in stone

But my now

this now

is all I need to know

 

I am motivated

I am determined and

I will be successful

Nothing and noone will stand in my way

Even myself

I refuse to let it happen

I refuse to live on edge riddled with anxiety

 

I am an optimist

I am a realist I am me

This is me Completely and totally

Me