I want to love you 

I really do

But I am scared

Please understand why I hesitate 

It is not because of you 

It is because of me 

Something like this is not easy

I stay when they go

They travel but leave me their luggage

Everything that is them is in there

Or the version of them that they wanted to leave behind with me

I waited so long for one to come pick up her bag

Do you know how hard it was to finally throw it out?

I do not want to do that again