letters to burn

Dear, mom

You don't know who I am and I don't know who you are.

Do you remember what had been done to separate us so many years ago?

I feel like I can see you in my dreams but, your image is never clear to me.

Would you forgive me if I said I hate you? I never will hate you.

This world is so cold and people so mean but, I'm alone without you.

When it rains, when it snows, I'll never know why…

The trains ring in my ears as I cry silent tears at night.

I’m grown enough now, you don’t need to worry.

I stood above all the things that tried to knock me down.  

The chains we all carry aren’t heavy enough to drown me yet.

The sun still rises and the day goes by one step at a time.  

Yes i get angry or depressed at times but so does everyone else.

I’m doing fine, I’m doing okay, I’m…. Longing for something I can’t have...

I have so many things to ask you.

Where are you?  

Do you ever think of me?  

Do you like the sound of rain?

What do you look like?

If you were to see me now could you stand the sight?

What emotions would I see in your eyes? Sadness? Hatred? Disappointment? Regret?  

Did you ever love me and would you love me if we were to meet?

I wonder sometimes who I am and who I look like.

I wish you could hold me in your arms and tell me everything's alright.

No matter how independent I am, I still lean on my thoughts of you.

I don't care what anyone says about me or you I will always want to meet you once again.

I met you once in my life yet I don't know a thing about you.

Am I like you in anyway?

Sometimes i feel like i can imagine you hand enclose mine in comfort but, the feeling disappears all  

too soon. Even if i don't know you, i know that you're somewhere watching me

All the what ifs float inside my head and you're my last thought before I go to sleep at night.

This is my letter to burn because I know you will never answer.

No matter where you are I'll miss you.

I love you forever.

Love, your lost baby girl


This poem is about: 
My family


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