Let me tell you a bit about me

I am not an easy person

I do not trust easy

I would rather sit with a book

Than go out with friends

I am a listner

Do not confuse my silence

For me being disinterested

I am timid

But I will not hesitate to tell you how I am feeling

I am quiet

But I can be one of the loudest people you come into contact with

I love too easily

But very rarely do I express it

I will not always be able to express myself

Sometimes you will touch my arm

And I will shatter into pieces

Tidal waves will pour from my eyes

I will gasp for breath

And cling to you

But I will gather myself up

Time and time agin

I always have

I will not come to you

I am scared of pushing you away

With all of my thoughts

And feelings

So I will keep to myself

Some days I will not be able to utter a word

Others I will talk for hours

I am my worst critic

But you don't know this

You don't know

That I stand in the mirror

And criticize every inch of myself

In front of you

I hold my head high

A slight smirk on my face

That may scream confidence

But truly

I am insecure

You don't know the nights

I lay awake

Fearing the future

Hoping I make it through the next day

Or week

Or year

How I would rather hurt myself

Than anyone else

 

What you don't know

Is that I want you to know

I desperately want to be caught

Crying in the corner

And be able to tell you all of this

To tell you my life story

But I never will

Because I don't trust easily

And I am scared