For so long, 

I thought it was fear 

Clinging so tightly to me. 

In everything I did, 

I had a thought in the back of my mind, 

Constantly, 

That would make its way to the front, 

Effortlessly, 

And suddenly, 

I would become frozen, 

Unable to break free from the fear 

Taking hold of me. 

So I prayed 

And I prayed 

And I prayed, 

That God would take that paralyzing 

Fear away from me. 

But still, it came and overtook me. 

Until He revealed to me  

That It’s not fear’s arms 

wrapped around me. 

It’s my own earthly desires.  

But my desires have no hold on me. 

Instead, 

I have a tight grip on my desires, 

And all I need to do 

Is let go 

And let God.