Learning From the Wings
Reading
Writing
Living
Poetry
Words in motion,
Trying to capture their rays
And magnify the feelings
So that maybe someone relates
Press the wings of the trembling words to examine what I've learned
Gazing intently reveals more than expected
I see the first breaking out,
The song poetry from when I was seven years old,
The haikus in sixth grade,
When I wrote about the shape of the clouds and thought I was so original.
I can almost feel the first shaky flight
The first time I let my angsty pre-teen self write my instense feelings via slam poem,
The channeling of other firsts into someone else's characters
The clunky word choice,
The cringey edits.
I see the joureys that have left the wings with new patterns and shapes,
The first late night, sharing my latest writing that I worked so hard on, praying for approval,
The computer screen gently glowing on my face,
Revealing the tears that ran down my face from the exciting dread
The bonds created with new friends, laughing with each other over our confusing sadness
I've learned from this form of art
How to be me
And how to view my history, my milestones
I've learned
How to accept my painfully growing
Self
How to appreciate
The changing version of myself
And how to be
Okay