I don’t want to be this pretentious city girl

Anymore.

I thought I knew.

 

I could see a 

Whole world around me - 

Must be real. I guess I’ll

 

Fuck up my hair, shit on

Makeup and swear

That I’m not sick, just damn cool.

 

Don’t holler at me.

I’ll be off in my peace.

God, I’m nervous no one can see

 

This damn world. I thought

I knew my options.

 

But then came a house with the firebright

Flowers of day.

These fucking signs

 

Got me changing -

A heart entertaining a

Life so quiet. A house

 

Full of love when I’m hopeless.

Right off of nowhere,

A cat and a dog and a tree.

 

Games by the fire,

A smile in the twilight.

I’m nervous - I hope he sees.

 

But this damn world.

Chaotic never changed much.

 

I guess I’m hitting that phase of acoustic life

Story.

Like a rock star,

 

I’m damaged and

Paying in ashes 

Of dreams that I burned when 

 

I ran from the nurture,

Back to the torture.

I’m growing, I swear, I say

 

To my best friend,

Whom I’ll hate to the end

For erasing a life in Sacrament.