The Journey To Becoming Understood
I used to stutter
The very thought of talking aloud used to make my heart flutter
I had trouble breathing
I couldn't control the rhythmic flow, the nature of my speaking
I remember dreaming
I dreamt of the day I'd be free of that painful feeling
I couldn't believe it
My reality had actually caused me to stop believing
I was depressed
Most days I wanted to lie in bed
I couldn't get dressed
What was the use in pampering myself
I was a mess
My destiny seemed bleak to me
Felt like no one took me seriously
Could I even finesse?
My soul was so weary
I felt burdened, not blessed
Oh God, did you forget me
Why do I feel so alone
Why am I so desperate
Desperate to find a home
This world wasn't meant for me
This earth isn't safe to me
I feel misunderstood
I know deep down, I'm dope
Why have I lost my hope
I feel misunderstood
I can't say my own name
I feel weak and ashamed
I feel misunderstood
Please God, help me grow wings
Help me to conquer this thing
Heal me from my stuttering
...
I knew one day I'd fly
You helped me touch the sky
To this day, tears fill my eyes
No longer am I stuck
I've left the mire and muck
No longer paralyzed
Sweet hope helped me to rise
To my fragrant surprise
You fueled my faith
Extinguished the lies
The victory is mine
Scratch that, it is OURS
You watched me cry for hours
I was a lonesome stranger
You wiped my tears, removed my anger
I'm thankful that You healed me
I'm grateful that You lifted me
I'm finally understood
But the stutter I struggled with taught me I could
Overcome all the madness and pain
I thank You, dear God cause You've freed me
No longer will I be chained
I used to stutter
Sometimes I still do
But I no longer feel out of place
I no longer feel the deep pain
You said greater was coming and its come
You’ve put an end to my misery
You’ve put an end to it, it’s done