It Is Impossible, But I Can Dream.
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I must say it is hard to choose
There are so many things I was forced to loose
Mistakes that have been taken by
my family, my friends and I
But in this one moment
like a halmark moment
My mother sleeps
and does not weep
She is the light in my world
And because of her
my shadow can shine
She is the sun and I'm the moon shinning because of her light
All she shows is within her,
gleaming bright
So what I want to change is something to benefit her.
I want to go back to two months after my birth
Perhaps as my father held me, I could have done something
Show him hope after his lost
Show him that what he does next is a big cost
Tell him that drugs and drinks
are not the thing
that can save him agony
I want him to realize
that in my baby eyes
that all his happiness;
in my heart is where it lies
I want him to watch me grow up
and not be a figure I hope will show up
Although I know what he did was wrong
I can not help but hope for a sweet song
to hear his voice
is my choice
I wish to change those moments when he laid his hand on my mother
I wish it was convert and what he did was smother
smother her with gifts, hugs and love
and did not kick or shove.
Maybe now, if I could change that
I would not have to fear
What I hear
My mother would not have to crawl through hell
or I would not dig through that wishing well
to earn the money we need,
so she can sleep in peace
with out a worry finacially.
Although she is brave
I know if I could have changed
that moment when he relapsed
I do not have to fear her collapse
when everything goes awry.
That is what I want to change,
Alright?