Why is school so hard?
I used to think everything was so easy
Then high school came along
Everything changed
My friends
My teachers
My classes
And worse of all
My grades
Now my mom is telling me I wont get in to college
Doubt is taking over me
Why cant I be as smart as everyone?
I try just as hard
The only problem is its hard
The worse part is trying to apply to college and not having enough money
I work a fourty hour work week
Every week
Right after school I go to work everyday
I dont have a normal life
My friends ask to hangout and I cant
I love my friends but they dont understand
Im working my butt off to try to pay for college because my parents cant
Their trying to help out but its mostly on me
No one understands how tired I am
And how hard Im working
Colleges dont care
Its sometimes my grades that suffer
Then I dont have to work as hard because I wont get in to college
Like my mom tells me
I'm trying to get out of this vicious ring of hard work
Senior year in high school and still struggling
I have to pay bills
I want to have nice things but cant afford them because its more important to save for college
I go to a rich school
Where kids make fun of me for getting clothes at the thrift store
They ask why dont you have uggs? Everyone has uggs?
I tell them I cant afford them
They tell me to ask my parents for the money
I tell them my parents cant afford them either
They say why not?
I tell them my parents dont have jobs like the rest of yours do
They ask if im poor
I tell them no
I just say im working on it
They ask why I cant hang out
I tell them i'm working
They ask if i've applied to college yet
I tell them i'm working on it
I need this scholarship to help pay for my college expenses so I can get the right education
And start as either a kindergarten teacher, a special education teacher, or a photographer
So I can make my mom happy and start taking care of my parents like they have had to take care of me and my brother and sister their whole lives
Lets just say
I'm working on it.