It's hard not to think about you Your beauty that magnifies over the lobes of my memory Consistent with its screech to emphasize its impact on me The reality that only existed in MY MIND Too misunderstood by our conflicting worlds Though the hints you dropped imprinted in my soul… Each one stronger than the last and much more significant Up until that moment all I saw was beauty… And I was pressured to pursue even though its what I wanted most… Just to find out it wasn't true, just to find out I wasn't meant for you… But all I could think of was you Your lips so soft that I couldn't even dream of what it'd be like when our lips met But it's beauty I could imagine in the moment we'd create But that wasn't my reality for I was stuck in a place unwanted by me Confused as I was, I waited cause you told me "later for sure" and that "it wasn't me but you" And that gave me hope that continued to pull the regions of my heart that drifted away closer to you again But you reassured your love for me wasn't true I was merely a pawn in your game... nothing but someone who was used to further yourself in this life And I'd sacrifice mines for you at any given moment But it wasn't true… that feeling wasn't in you… So I'd try so hard to let go but all I think of is you And your smile that would brighten up the darkness of my days And your laugh so beautiful no matter how much you hated it cause I loved it… Every moment of it more beautiful But it was all a dream… and always will be cause we weren't meant to be… Simply cause you didn't want me… But you did want me cause you spoke of a dream… one of me as your protector and provider Simply doing everything possible to make you happy Cause my love for you was all that mattered… and your love for me fueled my flames And you were the top of my priorities You're all that mattered… You're all that does matter… Cause i'm trying to let go… But your beauty has me trapped in a web where my death seems near… Where I'd die without you… more lost than i am today But ill die thinking of you… Cause thats all i know how to do