I'm The Girl

Thu, 02/09/2017 - 01:09 -- Hazel.O

I have a super power

I have the ability to put people in the arms of someone else

Someone they love

A girlfriend or boyfriend

So if you feel alone be friends with me

I’m a nice person

And I don’t mean that sarcastically

I genuinely am

I’m the girl that says

Text me when you get home

Call me if you need anything

I’m the girl that says I’m here for you

I’m the girl that means it

I’m the girl that people look at baffled and say “how are you single?”

I WISH I FUCKING KNEW

I’m the girl that everyone thinks is dating “that guy”

I’m the girl that says “no, we’re just friends”

I’m the best friend

I’m the girl that guys say they want

I’m the girl next door

I’m the girl that all my best guy friends say that they want to be their girlfriend

Well not me but someone exactly like me

Someone that has my exact personality

But someone who doesn’t weigh 250 pounds

A guy is noble if he’s best friends with a fat girl

But if he dates her that’s just sad

But don’t worry if I don’t find anyone in the next thirty years I’m theirs

I love how they have the audacity to think that in 30 years I'm still gonna be alone.

They want a girl that they can spend hours talking to

They want a girl they can go on dates with

They want a girl who's down to earth

They want a girl who isn’t afraid to put them in their place

These are the things they tell me

They tell me they love me, platonically of course

I’m the girl they asked to be their valentines date

But just in case they don’t have anyone better

But they always do

I’m the girl that knows everything about him

I’m the girl that he tells everything to

They tell you how they kinda like this girl but they don’t think it will last

Your heart drops to your stomach and burns in the acid

But you smile and act happy

As whatever hope of a relationship gets shattered into a million pieces

Now I don’t usually fall for my best friends

I say usually but there are certain cases

But mostly I fall for the idea of it

I get wrapped up in everyone else’s ideas

I start thinking of the possibility of someone wanting me

Someone I care about liking the idea of me as “more than a friend”

They ask for your opinion because they care what you think

And then they do the opposite

And it is always the opposite

I’m the girl that’s looking out for your best interest

I’m the girl that always has your back

They lie about having a date to a dance because they couldn’t bear to tell you that they didn’t want to be seen with “the fat girl on their arm”

They say they care about you

But then they find their new girlfriend

And they suddenly stop caring

They stop wanting someone to talk to

They stop needing a best friend

They stop telling you things

I’m the girl that says she “just wants you to be happy, even if it’s not with you”

I’m the girl that thinks if she says it enough times she’ll believe it

I’m the girl that always has to show she’s happy for you

I’m the girl that has to tell everyone she happy for you because that’s what best friends do

But

I’m now the girl that has to walk home alone because you’re on a date

I’m now the girl that has no one to talk to because you’re watching a movie

I’m now the girl that you’ll say “I'll text you later I’m busy” and then you forget

I’m now the girl that finishes watching that Netflix show on her own because you started watching it with her

I’m now the girl that does things alone because “it would be weird because I have a girlfriend now”

I’m now the girl that is an asshole if I say any of this out loud

I’m now the girl has to say she’s too busy to talk to you so no one see’s she’s hurt

I’m now the girl that does school work for twice as long so everyone thinks that I’m a good student

But in reality I’m now the girl covering myself in bandaids and glue trying to heal

I’m now the girl that doesn’t get to be happy when shit ended up exactly like I said it would

And Now I’m the girl that comes back after you treated me like shit

Because in thirty years I’m finally gonna have someone.

 

This poem is about: 
Me

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