As I grow older, I find myself falling for girls with a similar mindset as me
I used to chase after girls
Who were pretty, beautiful, but had no personality
Something had clicked and in that moment I knew
That there was something about you
And I didn't know what to do.
The first time I got my heart broken was after I played myself
Had my mind thinking one thing
When reality was something else
I try to put that in the past
I try to laugh and smile
But I know it's gonna take awhile
They say time heals most wounds
But is seven months too soon?
Does time know about your hands
And the way I held them dear and close to my heart for fear of letting go
Letting myself fall
Does time really know it all?
Because if time does know,
Imma need time to stop eavesdropping and mind its own damn business
Not to sound so defensive,
I guess it's good to have a witness.
Because I'm clearly out of touch with reality
Because reality was not you and me
And I can continue pretending
Like I'm not messed up
Put a smile on my face
And shut the fuck up.
But that's not what I'm here for - But I'm also not here to tell you I want more
Because I know you're not listening
And that's fine because I don't want you to be mine no more
I don't believe in love - told you that from the start
But then I met you and realized I had a heart.
Not too long after that I knew
Because of your similar mindset
You didn't believe in love too.