I sit behind, watching and observing.

I stare in awe as I see them,

They are outgoing and not shy towards anyone.

They are funny and not afraid to be themeselves.

Other people join in on the fun,

I'm left out paralyzed with fear,

Worries of judgement and harsh words flood my head.

They are all having fun,

So why can't I?

They are all confident with who they are, 

So why am I not? 

Why is it hard for me to speak in front of crowds?

To goof around and have fun?

To be myself around those I don't know?

Must be fear of judgement,

From people who don't matter. 

I start realize that their opinions,

What they truly think of me and my actions,

May not matter at all.

I feel the paralysis start to lose its grip.

I muster up the courage to join in the fun, 

But I wasted too much time. They are done,

And I missed my chance...

Maybe next time I tell myself... Maybe next time.

I do this all of the time, 

I let my introverted tendencies control me,

Block me from having fun.

If I can just be an extrovert,

If I could just be myself around others,

Maybe then I can join in the fun.

Maybe then the fear of judgement wont rule me.