I promised I wouldn't slam you.
Took a heartfelt oath and signed my name in love
Pinky promised you immunity from my written wrath and vocal violence
Swore to plea the fifth when your name crossed lips
I was willing to defy my inner poet,
Demean my woman scorned power,
Dehumanize my insecurities
As if my love wasn't enough for you
My feelings weren't enough for me
As if being human and in love and absorbed in you was the only way I could overcome my pain
And yes, I'm a fucking bitch
For standing up to you
Putting the brakes on a relationship that started its course on the highway to hell in the eye of the tornado
Distracting me from bumpy, broken path with the eerily sedating stand still
Our love was motionless
Well you were emotionless
How the hell didn't I catch the copycat tones,
The mimicked emotions
Recycled love stories
Your love crushed my realistic thought processes into tiny bits of fantasies and alternate realities in which you could love me for eternity, eternally faithful to me and only me
But you only love once right?
And she was your once
Your only, your princess in your eternal dungeon
Flashlight in the concave of your harshest realities
The essence of her crept into you like a shadow,
Absorbed itself into everything that made you you
Hogged all the crevices in your heart
Clouded all the cracks in your soul
Her presence made you incapable of of allowing a tiny warmed hand into your universe
I was a grain of sand in your universe while you were the sun in mine
Which is fitting because I got too close to you and you seared my humanity off
Melted my skin from my bones
You burned me bare
And I don't know how to recover from self inflicted wounds
Your love grew talons and fangs
Ripped into my ribcage like there wasn't a heart still beating in there
You left a path of tears and tears behind you
Shredded remnants of a broken girl beneath your feet
How did you turn love into a weapon of mass destruction?
Where's Bush when you need him?
I'm sorry.
I promised I wouldn't slam you.
I'm sorry for breaking my promise.