I hold my hope tight in my hands

Hoping my light will come soon

I stumble through the dark

An invisible typhoon

I trip over my own tracks

As I start to circle back

But I'm too far gone to ever come begin again

I'm lost in my maze of confusion

The walls twist to my vision

As my vision fills with loneliness and horrible thoughts

The more I get lost and lost

The waves I can't see are falling on top of me

All while I hole my hope close never letting go

Cause the second I drop my guard

My hopes leaves me, going with the flow

And my writing never makes sense to anyone

My books are poetry and my poetry is books

But unlike everything else

My writing never leaves

I always have things to say

I just never have enough voice to say it

But soon my vision fills with dreams

As my vision fills with desire and hopes

The more and more I see my path clear

I feel the riptides pulling me back to the storm

I hear the voices telling me I will never make it

I smell the smoke of my living room and the salt of the ocean taunting me

I scream all the words inside my head that have been held captive for far too long

And I see the end

The end of my misery

The end of my pain

The end of my suffering

I will not be lost anymore

I cradle my hope and fight my never-ending uphill battle

But the joke is on me

My hope was built off an empire of lies

And as I run to what I see

I notice the flicker of determination in my eyes

Fade

Away

And soon I do to

The water caresses my ankles

Softly

The darkness embraces my soul

Welcoming

The maze becomes hazier and hazier as I fall

I fall asleep

Floating on an ocean of happiness

Never allowed to sink into

With the darkness's arms around me

The voices whispering lullabies into my ear

I go numb every day seeing the end

But every time I try to leave this bed of lies

The blanket of darkness holds me closer

I know as I fade away

I will never reach it

So I let mysel...fa...slo... ...