I don't know why I am this way inside

Every time I break out of my shell I hide

I don't know why.

I don't know why it's so hard for me to try.

 

When I do everything's fine.

But for some reason I go and I hide.

In my little space there is only so much room.

So.much.room.

 

I wish I could explain all of this. 

All of this pain.

I don't know why it's so hard for me to try. 

Why can't I accept who I am inside.

It's so easy for others.

The ones who have Lost so much more than I.

Yet here I am 

here I stand

 alone.

On my own.

And as the tears fall down and stain my cheeks

They remind me.

They remind me of all the times I've felt like this.

Ripped open, my heart torn from my chest.

I try to breathe but the pain is all around me.

Engulfing me in all the worst possibilities.

They say its okay 

Express your feelings

But when you do

No one seems to care

And as the tears stain my cheeks.

All that retains is this  feeling.

Of being lost.

No ones around to hold me.

I'm scared.

No ones around to tell me it's okay.

When I'm breaking.

And I know this seems to happen often.

I'm sorry

 I'm sorry that it's such a problem...