I believe the most common lie told is "everything will be okay"

Not because I'm a pessimist. But because I have given up on such childish lies.

Nothing is ever "okay"

People only learn to hide their pain

Yoy push it deep down, so that you seem okay

You are able to laugh, to smile, to love, only to be drowning from the brokeness that consumes you

It will take years before the dam breaks, before the already shattered walls completely crumble

Meanwhile, you were waiting for somebody to notice the pain behind your smile

You were hoping to be saved, but you know its too late

Because it hurts too much to admit how weak you are

You've been hurt too many times

And that last time was too much

You want out

Out of life

You don't care anymore

But you stil won't do it

You won't shatter your already too broken family

You don't know if you're too weak or brave enough to stay

You pray its the latter

But there is still so much pain inside

The razor...

It was once your blissful escape, but you swore never to pick it up again

But maybe this one time...just this last time

You give into the temptation, and you lose yourself in the feel of the metal

When you are done, you feel better, but you know what you've done is wrong

Yet you can't bring yourself to care....

You know that caring too much is what brought you here in the first place

They once told you it would be okay

They once said time would make everything easier

But time is at a standstill

And you're still stuck in the same place as before

And you know then....that nothing will ever be ok

Things can get better, they can improve, but they sure as hell will never be "okay" again

And don't you dare tell me otherwise.....I've been there one time too many