I am a survivor

At least I am for now

The fear of being consumed

By that wretched death

For a second time

Makes my hands tremble

As if they’re experiencing

Their own personal earthquake

 

I am a survivor

It’s nice

But also terrifying

Everyday

Looking in the mirror

And finding

That a part of you

Is missing

It’s the constant reminder

Of that horrid ghost

Taking away your joy

Your stamina

Your job

Your hair

Your friends

Your family

Your youth

Your life

 

I am a survivor

But that’s all it is

Not living

But not dying

Stuck in the middle ground

Just between life and death

Survival

 

I am a survivor

I should be grateful

Grateful for my survival

Grateful for my determination

I should be proud

Proud of my survival

Proud of my determination

 

I am a survivor

But I’m not the only one

That should make me feel better

But it doesn’t

I’m not the only one

Suffering, losing, dying

But for now

we’re all

Surviving