I am numb. I make plans to thaw out but right now i am numb from your icy daggers thrown at my heart. Blow by blow you bestow onto me. As though I was paralyzed from the head down. As though your words are not the death of the little pieces of me. Tearing apart every bit my confidence that I summoned for myself. Your words do not only freeze but burns. Burns like standing 2 steps away from the sun burning my eyes until they are tired of producing tears. Burning my skin, my very core was aching from your fire and ice. Spewing words of hatred, your words have no mercy taking and taking until there is nothing. Nothing to rip apart. Nothing to scar.. Nothing to cover my bare thrashed heart at which you stare at with you fire filled eyes waiting for the right moment to strike me for all I have. You do not care about my red blood shot eyes. You take victory in seeing me sink to the floor from your attacks. You take victory in seeing my bones shake with fear. Because i am never aware of when you are going to finally pounce on your prey taking life with every bite. So I absent mindedly wait. Wait for you to pull the trigger and end this imperfection. This blemish that is keeping you from living. This pimple that wont go away not matter how much ointment or facial masks you put on it. This unwanted freckle, mole, dark spot is attacked by the one who caused it to be known as an unwanted thing. My imperfections are your target practice. Your dart board. And as you raise your hand to aim at me once again I stand still. Waiting for the darts to pierce me deep while you laugh and point of how you hit the bulls eye. Taking pride in what you do best. Throwing weapons at my heart. You take heed in my last breath of sanity. My last hope of ever being from the shackled chains that keep my naked feet on cold cement. My last hope is held in your cold blooded riddling hands. And as i sink into your man made darkness, i see glimmer of your regret. Telling me you love me. Telling you need me. But I choose not to strain my ears to listen because the pain of your attacks is overbearing. I am numb. I make plans to thaw out but right now i am numb from your icy, fiery, paralyzing,pouncing, merciless, blemish removing,piercing, shooting, ripping, shackling, victorious daggers thrown at my heart.