How the hell are you so blind?
Yes I'm the Devil in disguise
Ask the God you love so much
If I am worth his saving touch
Ask the spirits that I see
If they will ever, ever leave
Ask the boy I used to love
If when I die I'll rise above
How could you assume that I
Would be so loved after I die?
Don't talk bad about myself?
Don't take my heart from off its shelf!
I've been denied my own damn story
I mined my heart from some lost quarry
Written in stone, my life on a wire
I'm over this love, I'm so damn tired
I don't wanna be "Little Miss Sweet"
Be kind and forgiving, so tidy and neat
Quiet and graceful, a little light Lotus
Being kind got me nothing, revenge gets me noticed
I'm over wasting my time
I'm over standing in line
I worried too much about another
And now I'll never be a mother
I was ready to change my plans
For once there was no blood on my hands
Now I'm soaked in bright red lifeforce
I just want to scream until I grow hoarse
You all said I lived too passive
Now you complain when I'm aggressive?
You want to shut your goddamn mouth
Long enough for me to get this out?
No I wouldn't say this to your face
Nothing but a subordinate, not my place
You say you want to help me
Then why am I silenced when I speak?
See if I don’t crack a joke or two
Then I will crack and never make it through
Of course I'm sick inside my head
I don't care if I should wind up dead
I want nothing more than to just give up
For four straight weeks I've filled my cup
At least I'm not lighting cigarettes
But it isn't much further away, I guess
I know the promises I've tried to make
But I'm choking on the Communion I tried to take
Drown me in Holy Water, Drown me in flames
Though I work alone you'll still ask me for the names
I can see the straight-jacket, all custom sewn
You've prepared for me, now I'm on my own
To you I'll always be another loon
If I never see you again it'll be too soon
I could be what you don’t think I am, yeah, I think so
And watch you squirming to find yourselves a true hero
But Clark Kent ran scared into that telephone booth
You wouldn't even listen if I screamed the truth
You can't love me because you don't understand?
How do you think I felt when you let go of my hand?
I felt a love for you that I would cherish and foster
But had to leave it all behind because you think I'm a monster